Rozan’s Story

Posted by: in Inspirational on April 17th

Rozans Story
For those of you who don’t know me, I was raised in the Muslim faith. Growing up in a Muslim home wasn’t always easy, especially being the only one in your family serving Jesus. Here’s an idea of what life was like in our Muslim home.

The Muslims believe Allah is God. Women have no privileges. In a Muslim home, parents would arrange marriages for the children as young as fifteen years of age. And yes, I was set up for an arranged marriage. I will explain later.

My parents divorced when I was young. My dad was always in and out my life, and when he did come around, he was drunk and starting trouble. Besides dealing with a broken home, I was sexually assaulted as a child, leaving a huge emptiness in my heart. Then one day, at the age of twelve, my sister and I got invited to a Pentecostal church.

Woohoo! We both got baptized, but there was a difference between the two of us. I had a desire to draw closer to God and learn more about Him. She wasn’t ready to change. Since day one, Hell attacked me like never before. My family was against me going to a Jesus’ name church, but I would go every time I had the chance. I had to be careful so my family wouldn’t find out.

But they soon found out, and I faced a fight as soon as I got home from church. My mom told me I was being a disgrace to my family, and my brothers slapped and hit me. But the bruises didn’t matter. I wanted to live for Jesus. My mom told me to me stop going to church. I didn’t want to displease my mom, but I was facing a unique dilemma—I wanted to please God, but that meant disappointing my mom. But I chose to please God, and God helped me keep the right attitude toward my family. I told her, “I’m not going to stop—I feel God at church, not at the Mosque.”

That only made my brothers hit me harder. They cussed at me and spit on me, but I know God’s grace covered me. Every day since then my mom would call me every name in the book In Arabic and in English. She would say “You’re not my child. You’re not part of this family.” It hurt, but I knew the devil was just trying to stop me.

My family thought they would stop me from going to church by sending me overseas to Jordan. Not once but twice. It was hard at first. I felt so alone, and I thought to myself “Why not just give up?” Just when I thought I was alone, I wasn’t. God was with me, and He was stirring me up. Something inside of me was burning. Every chance I would get to reach out to someone overseas, I did! I wasn’t afraid anymore. Nothing could stop me.

My cousin found out I was telling people about God, and he told me I had to choose between him or God, and if I choose God, he told me to stop talking to him. I said, “That’s fine. I choose God!” He sent me back to America. I thought the struggle was over since my family found out I was going to church. I was wrong; it was worse. Next, my sisters turned their backs on me. I got hit even more, spit on every day, and got mocked daily. They would say, “What is your God going to do to help you?” I prayed every day for God to help me, strengthen me, and help my family understand why I wanted to serve Him.

Then, on August 20, 2010, my brother was shot and killed. It hurt my family very much. It made my mom a very angry person. She blamed his whole death on me and would often ask “Why couldn’t God take you instead of him? He was my son. You are nothing to me.”

On the inside, I was hurting and angry, but I didn’t let it bother me. I kept fighting. I didn’t understand why I was getting blamed for my brother’s death. My mom was getting angrier daily. She would go days without talking to me until one day she came into my room, looked me in the eye, and said, “You know what? I pray that something bad happens to you every time you leave.” I wondered who would say that to their daughter? It was driving me crazy every day, and the pressure got to me.

I failed God. I was so angry with myself that I turned to the world for answers. Once my family saw that, they all started talking to me and accepting me again. My mom asked me to get married for money because it would help her and my family. I was pleasing everyone else but God. I didn’t care how much my mom hurt me. I just wanted to feel loved and appreciated, so I got married.

It was a bad decision. I was miserable the whole time, but even when I did get married, nothing seemed to change with my mom or my sisters. I was still the odd one, and that’s when I knew I was never going to fit in with my family. I was different from them.

I’m a child of God who had to get back up and step it up because if I wasn’t praying for my family or the Middle East, who would? I got myself recommitted to God and was stronger in Him than ever before. I went to HYC one year, and that’s where I heard about AYC. It was about reaching people from different countries, and I felt God tugging on my heart.

I have a passion to reach people. That’s when I knew I wanted to be a missionary to the Middle East or wherever God wanted me to go preach this gospel. One day I was burdened for the Middle East and wanted to see if I was the only Arabic person in church. I wanted someone who could relate to me. So I connected with the UPCI and every organization I knew of, and I asked around. As far as I knew, I was the only Arabic person in my district’s section. I prayed for God to open a door for me to be known in the missionary world. And He did!

The UPCI connected me with the director of the United Pentecostal Church over all the Middle East. He called me, and I told him my testimony. At the end of our conversation he told me I wasn’t alone. He wanted me to encourage a seven year old Iranian girl who is facing the same situation I went through.

Although it has been a struggle, I thank God for all He has done. I have friends in my church, which is very important. I could not have made it without them. I am thankful for my pastor and his wife, with whom I have a very strong relationship. They prayed with me, counseled me, and loved me. I am grateful for my family with whom I live. They have been the best part of growing in God for me. I am now the bass player at my church, along with being a Sunday school teacher, and actively participating in the youth and pretty much everything else we have going on.

At the time I wrote this I was continually praying for my family. Even though I no longer live with them, I kept in contact with them through phone calls and visits. On April 5, 2015 I invited my mom and my sister to Easter service. I didn’t know what the outcome would be. But during the service God touched my mother’s heart, and she was baptized in Jesus’ name! She still needs the Holy Ghost, but I thank God for moving on my family.

So I write this and share this to tell you no matter what life throws at you; no matter how bad the situation is, keep on fighting. God has a purpose for each and every one of you.

Othman, Rozan

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20 Replies to “Rozan’s Story”

  1. Robert Brown says:

    I currently live with Rozan. She is every bit as brave and amazing as this article portrays. She also plays bass for the churchs head praise team and the young adult praise team!

  2. Mag says:

    I was browsing this web site looking for inspiration for a magazine article design when I came across this article. I just asked my husband, not even an hour ago, what was different about our God. How do we REALLY know that He is THE God when so many other religions believe just as firmly as we do that their God is the one. When you talked about feeling God at church and not at a Mosque, it silenced my doubt. I’m 27 and I have been raised in this, but the last several months I have been searching for more. It’s not that I don’t believe, but I’m terrified that I am simply saying and acting like I believe while all the while not believing. I want to KNOW that I know! I’m a facts person. It takes a LOT to get me to buy in and sell out. I want to be completely, 100% sure that I KNOW. I asked God to help me with this after opening up to my husband a little while ago. I was thinking some miraculous event that would leave no looming doubt, but instead He lead me to this article and your words have pierced to the depths of my soul. Your perspective has helped me see what I have hoped to be true all along. Thank you for this faith building testimony! Bless you for your endurance and determination to follow The Lord.

    1. Rozan says:

      Thank you so much! And I pray that this helped you

  3. Karlie says:

    Wow! This has seriously touched my heart and soul! I read this article to my parents, and we were all in tears by the time I was done reading it. As a struggling teen, this really helped me get reconnected with God. Thank you so much for sharing your story!

  4. Jamildo says:

    Fico feliz com o que o Sr, Jesus esta fazendo no meio do povo do Oriente medio, tenho orado por um mover de Deus nessa região. Deus te abençoe jovem.
    eu sou do Brazil. ABRAÇOS A TODOS

  5. Tabatha chavarria says:

    what a beautiful testimony sis:) God is doing great things in you and will do in your family too!! God bless you

  6. Robert Fernandez says:

    Beautiful testimony sister. Never give up is exactly what we have to do to reach out to our world.

    1. rozam says:

      thank you so much

  7. Elise says:

    hallelujah! Your testimony gives me such hope. I teach many Muslims, and I feel a burden for them in prayer. Thank you for your faith and your steadfastness!

    1. rozam says:

      thank you. i pray you reach many more Muslims and they open their hearts to God.

  8. Jacob Habina says:

    Wow! Great testimony Sister, Rozan. God Is going to do wonderful things in your life. Keep up the great work.

    1. rozam says:

      thank you for the kind words

  9. Lisa Maldonado says:

    Rozan ,
    I have known you since you first came to church and I am so proud of the woman you have become ! Your testimony is going to touch so many people all because you love Jesus with all your heart and show that no matter what that the joy of the Lord is your strength !! Love you
    Sis Lisa

    1. rozam says:

      thank you sis.lisa i plan on doing whatever God wants me to do.

  10. Liza Capecenio says:

    Wow… powerful testimony…we are overcomers by the blood of the lamb and by the word of our testimony..To God be all the Glory 🙂

  11. tonya says:

    What a great testimony and inspiration! More young people should have that commitment. Thanks for sharing. It was encoraging to read!

    1. rozam says:

      thanks 🙂

  12. Niki says:

    Awesome testimony! Thank you for sharing it. Keep on keeping on, Sister!

    1. rozam says:

      thank you 🙂

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